You are not alone

Laa, rajin plak ak tulis blog ni. Saje je. Bosan pulak 2-3 hari ni. Sekarang pukul 730, ak baru je balik dari Rathaus. Bila balik, sampai umah, lagu mendiang MJ tetiba bernyanyi kat kepala ak.

'You are not alone

I'm still here with you..'

Walaupun duduk dalam bilik sorang2, n kadang2 bosan, ak x tahu la.. Bukan nak cakap apa, tapi bila penyakit Einsamkeit (aka loneliness) datang, mesti ada benda berlaku yang buat aku lupa tentang loneliness. Ada sekali tu, aku memang bosan n sepi tahap nak balik Malaysia, tapi tetiba, budak2 kelas ak kol, ajak join study group. So, ak terpaksa la study malam tu, n one way or another, ak lupa tentang kesepian.

Hari ni pun, pukul 12 tgh hari, ak rasa semangat dah kosong. Buku pun x sentuh, asyik menghadap computer buat benda sama yang x berguna. (Tgk email, check duit, friendster). Tetiba dua budak Auslander (foreigner) dari group ak kol, kata nak dtg umah sbb nak blaja ap ntah. So, blajalah kami. Huu, sempoi keje dgn deorg. Bila dah habis blaja, open story ar. Sorang tu dari Morocco, sorang dari Senegal. Duk kongsi pengalaman duduk kat Germany. Bila cerita2, ak prasan hidup deorg lebih kurang je mcm hidup dak Malaysia kat German. Masalah bahasa, masalah budaya, masalah agama dll. So lepas deorg balik, ok gak ar rasa.

By the way, kat Offenburg ni, rasa dah bosan. Semua tempat menarik dah pegi. Benda yang seronok masa 1st sem, jd kurang seronok masa 2nd sem. Well,what to expect, kata dah dewasa, so control je la. Once liked but now hated, so what to do.. You cannot please everybody can you? Whatever happens behind closed doors, let them happen for a warrior always looks upward even at the brink of defeat. A warrior will never cower when 1000 spears are pointed towards his throat but in turn find ways to point those spears back to his opponent.

Bushido