Buat thesis. STUCK!

Sekarang tengah duk dlam opis. Bos ak xde so ak bole tulis blog. haha
Tengah buntu. Buntu. Susah sebenarnya jadi engineer. Masa practical dah satu hal. Ni sekarang buat research, lagi sakit kepala otak. Duduk dalam pejabat 4 hari seminggu, 10 jam sehari. Tgh fikir camana nak selesaikan masalah teknikal. Adoi2..

Tapi yang bestnya, ak diberi kemudahan macam jurutera2 lain kat syarikat ni. Nombor sendiri, tempat duduk sendiri, pastu kebebasan sendiri. Kalau nak buat lawatan pun suke hati. Boleh claim. Kuasa banyak. Boleh suruh orang buat apa2 yang ko nak. Tapi 'With great power comes great responsibility'.

Deadline 6 bulan untuk selesaikan masalah ni. Nak kene tengok theorie, nak kene order barang, nak kene pasang, nak kena program. Sampai jurutera lain pun cakap macam ak tgh buat kerja yang sgt besar. Adoi. Xpela. Pengalaman.

 Bila tgh research, ada hari yang idea2 semua datang dalam kepala otak secara lancar. 1001 idea boleh fikir dalam seminggu. Tapi bila dah xde idea.. haa.. BUNTU!!

Rasa nak hentak tengkorak ni depan monitor. Rasa nak jadi gila, gelak tanpa sebab, tapi xde member yang segila aku kat sini. So, buatlah poker face dalam opis. Nak cari maklumat semua kena buat sendiri. Bos cakap nak tu, ak bagi la benda tu. Bila aku bagi, x kene plak dgn apa dia nak. So, kene tengok balik. Serius ak x tau apa dia nak. Dah kene marah hari tu dengan dia. Down gak ar. Tapi esoknya, ak decide nak buktikan kat dia, yang ak boleh. Tapi idea xde. So lagi down.

Sekarang xde idea. KEINE AHNUNG! Tolong. Ak call prof, prof sruh tanya jurutera-jurutera lain kat sana. Ak tanya jurutera2 lain, deorang pun x tahu. So... BUNTU!! Adakah ini maksudnya menjadi jurutera? Kebuntuan dan kebodohan? TOLON!!

Besok ada kelas. Harap2 x buntu lagi. Jumpa rakan2 seperjuangan di Offenburg. Liyana, Pat, Christoph, Rusi dll. Boleh jadi gila sket depan deorang. :D

Putting limits in your head

There's an interesting quote I heard somewhere: A spiritual person understands and a religious person believes. The perfect balance of spirituality and faith is the key to sincerity. We open our hearts to books, knowledge, and opinions eventhough how wrong or twisted it may be, and face it all with an open heart and an open mind.  Into seeking the truth, one must learn. Every point in our lives we are faced with teachers of every kind. Teachers do not mean a person sitting in front of you in class and teaching you. In life everything is a teacher. The ecosystem, the animals, books, even friends. All of them are teachers for we learn a lot from them. Not just by listening but also through observing and critical analysis.

Knowledge must not be limited from the access of the students. For me, a person forbidding others to learn what they want is a hypocrite towards the world of academia itself. Academics open their hearts and minds to learn and absorb the knowledge of this world and beyond that. They make analysis, do research and finally deepen the knowledge that the world currently has. This type of thinking has molded great inventors, researchers and scientists from the dawn of time. Brilliant academics are normally laughed at by people who don't understand them but finally make the world open their mouth in awe when their ''bogus'' theory becomes true and legitimate. A clear example is Einstein. in the 1920's his theory on relativity was laughed at, but in the 1940's his theory paved way for nuclear energy as well as nuclear bombs (sadly). His name is associated with ingeniousness and his formula E = mc² is memorized by almost everyone in the scientific community.

The main problem that limits our train of brilliance and genius is always the problem of bias. Our minds tend to swerve towards bias facts. Facts that are always imbalance and tend to favor one argument than the other. Universal knowledge is almost non-existent in academia nowadays because there are too much majors. For example, when one is an engineer his scientific thinking is only biased towards technical and business areas that they leave out the disciplines of psychology, philosophy and art out of their work. Sometimes there are concrete and truthful facts that are right within our grasp but our minds just ignore them because these facts contradict with the facts we have learned so far. We skip a paragraph from any book we read because these facts are not in par with our own train of thought and how we are molded to think. Academic biases are one of the big reasons that dampen the development of sciences.

Efficiency is an important factor. Let me put it in this example. Farmer A has 100 female sheep that produces 400 litres of milk a day. Farmer B also has 100 sheep that only produce 200 liters of milk a day. So to say, farmer A has a higher milking efficiency than farmer A eventhough they have the same amount of sheep. Back to the story. We have a population of 7 billion. Everyone is gifted in their own way. Why not put the efficiency of mankind to good use? We spend a lot of time learning useless things like ''Who won the grammy awards, who is married to whom, and manipulative political garbage in the internet''. We live in a sea of information. Why not use the internet to learn things that benefit the human race. The thing is that when disasters or accidents occur, we could only shake our heads and lame others for the mistakes. Never do we blame ourselves for failing to prevent that catastrophe with the developments we have in the internet. That for me is one of the paradoxes in human nature. We will tend to put the blame on others and never look at our own misdeeds.