Thursday, 2 June 2011

Transition is hard


Change is never easy but it is an experience every being in this planet has to go through. And thus so far, i realized that drastic changes have been part of my life ever since.

But the changes i experienced in Malaysia was seemingly not so difficult because i had my family to guide me and support in whichever way they could. Now, the change i'm experiencing must be dealt with alone and experience has taught me that friends are not permanent like family. They come and go come back and go..

The primary focus is now on my family and perhaps my future. Dealing with the unknown and expecting the best of outcomes is the most stressful feeling a human soul could endure. Planning is one thing but carrying it out is another. I hope that God puts me in good predicament in which everything would run smoothly without putting any frown on anyone's face. I pray that i change for the better with wisdom and maturity for days to come.

Worry...worry...worry... that's all i could do and perhaps that is what making me thin. Before i sleep, i worry, the moment i wake up i worry, when i work i worry. When can i relax?? I need to relax. For once i wish that I'm not burdened by my decisions. Some of them were crappy and some i'm contented with. But it's ok...

aaaarghhh!!

Friday, 27 May 2011

Stress as a working man

Fuuulamak... tension siot. Ak keje kat firma ak ni, awal2 boss dah sound, 'Du wirst wie ein normaler Mitarbeiter in dieser Frima behandelt: Pass mal immer auf!''

Maksud dia, ''Ko akan dilayan sebagai pekerja biasa dalam syarikat ni. Jaga2!!'' In other words, no special treatment.

Tapi masa dia cakap tu ak happy sebab ak rasa benda ni akan buat ak insan lg mantap. Tapi sekarang, ak dah mula merungut. Jap2, ''Farid... buat ni... kene cepat....''. Lepas 30 saat dia cakap plak:Farid.. buat ni... high priority''. Lepas tu sorang lagi pun cakap ''Farid ni penting... klau bole cepat tau''.

Ku pun geram lalu berteriak, ''Boss... yang mana satu lagi penting ni???!''. Boss pun cakap, ''jangan tanya ak.. ak bukan boss!!'' Huhuhu.. So tiga2 keje ak kene buat dalam masa yang sama. Tambahan lagi 2 report yang masih perlu aku siapkan. Amek ko... So masa aku tengah buat tiga2 keje yang memakan otak yang banyak dan otot yang banyak nak bukak2 mesin smua... sorang lagi pegi kat ak, ''Farid... Kalau bole buat ni jap...'' Ak hilang sabar... lalu pegi ke mesin kopi... Fuu sedap... Ok.. lege sket... So sekarang ada 4 keje ak kene balance.

Lepas tu mamat turki sorang ni datang.. bagi ak arahan yang ntah apa2. Ak buat dek. X mampu layan. Tapi dia push2. Ak bertanya, ''apa??'' Dia pun menyuruhku buat ni... yang kata dia hanya memakan masa 2 minit. So ak buat la... N then boss ak dtg. Da pun berteriak,'' Oi.. Farid.. apa ko buat? Sejak bile ak sruh ko buat ni?''.. Ak pun menjawab, ''Mamat turki sruh buat''. Boss pon merajuk. N then ak ngan mamat turki kene marah. Ak bersabar. Hampir meletup. Ak mempertahankan diri, ''Mamat turki sruh buat''. Mamat turki pun seperti biasa x mengaku kesilapan dia, and cakap ak plak yang x faham arahan dia sebab ''masalah bahasa''. Memang macam tapir.

So ngan keje yang banyak, dan hati yang panas, ak sambung keje. Canister tekanan ak hampir meletup. Ku tengok jam. Aaa.. dah kol 1830. Hmmm bole kol membe ni jap. Luahkan perasaan so stress hilang. So membe la jadi mangsa. Sori ar... Nasib bek bes fren ak xyang dah kenal ak btul2. Thanx ar bro...

Balik, keje ak makan banyak2. tambah nasi tiga kali. X kesah. Janji puas. Pastu siap2 diri.. pastu.. three... haha... pastu tido. Tido yang dalam..

N besok, keje balik. But this time, Nad xde. So lagi lah merana hidup ak.. keje dia plak ak kene jawab bile boss tanya. Damn... Bersabarlah Farid...

I really need a long vacation u know :(. Huhuhuhhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu .

Sunday, 8 May 2011

Another noice weekend


Yo... spring is here. A hot one indeed. Every weekend there's always something new and exciting.
Ok.. sori English speaking readers. I think I'll write in Malay this time... Ich übersetze meine auf Englisch geschriebene Text bald :D

Eh... setiap weekend ni mntb ar.. mesti ada benda baru. Weekend ni minggu futsal and BBQ. Gua x men futsal pun, tapi tolong2 gotong royong tu yang best. Msak mee goreng dari 11 pagi ke 4 ptg. Keje berat, tapi bile buat keje dalam suasana yang best dan ceria, keje berat x nmpk berat sgt. Kalau penat, minum kopi.. :)

Seperti biasa ku menerima kunjungan rakan2. Seperti fairy tale indah, itulah hidupku di Ulm. Weekend depan nek beskal ngan dak ulm, 2 minggu depan, jalan2 panjat gunung, 3 minggu depan pergi berlin, brussels, amsterdam n paris. 4 minggu depan bercuti ngan member2 masa pfingsten, dll...

Masa BBQ, jumpe member2 yang lama dah x jumpa, lepak2, borak2 dan beramah mesra. Dari 8 pagi ke 12 malam... mulut x benti bercakap.. tapi ok... nice... dpt tau perkembangan membe2 sekeliling. ..




Sunday, 1 May 2011

Kehidupan

Fuu lama x update blog. Jarang ada masa nak update blog sbb keje2 practical and tanggungjawab2 lain.

By the way, semakin lama ak duk Ulm semakin sosial hidup ak. Tiap2 weekend ada aktiviti. Klau x dengan orang Malaysia, aktiviti dengan housemate aku ngan social circle deorg. Macam2 orang dah jumpa. Biasa men gitar hero n game PC ngan orang Malaysia.. sekarang dah men PS3 ngan game2 len ngan orang Deutscher. Hahaha... cool and mantap.

Kehidupan keje ak pun dah bertambah ok. Xla perfect tapi overall ak sangat berpuas hati. Boss layan, working environment sangat aman kecuali dengan orang2 tertentu yang ak xnk bazir waktu ak nk crite dalam blog ni. Not worth telling others sebab mcm "§$% sgt. Tp ok la. Just brush it aside. Boss sempat ajak buat prmulaan bachelor arbeit masa fasa practical pastu masa sem bachelor arbeit, sambung trus keje tu. Waaa... sangat best and sangat minat dengan bende yang dia suruh buat.

MInggu depan ada BBQ besar besaran kat Ulm, 2 minggu depan ada Treffen ngan kawan2 ak dari FH Offenburg kat Stuttgart. Waa... sangat best. 3 minggu depan ada fahrradtour 4 hari 3 malam Deutschland-Switzerland-Itali. Awal bulan 6 ada trip lagi pergi Berlin ngan Amsterdam.

Pastu Pfingsten, nak plan lagi ngan kengkawan. Xtau lagi nk pi mane. Tgk ar camne. Klau xde plan, pi Fahrradtour lagi... Fuh... best

Tuesday, 19 April 2011

Hidup sbg engineer pun bermula

Sori ar beb aku x lama bukak post. Busy lately. Non stop sejak akhir februari. Ada tu la ada ni la... Semua sronok, tapi semuanya memakan masa aku untuk membazir masa dalam dunia blogging.

Banyak benda berlaku. Pertmanya, akaun facebook ak kene hack. Petua2 tuk korg...


1. Klau login kat pc len, jgn lupa logout.


2. Jangan nak ngade bagi password kat orang.


3. Make sure email di mana korang daftar akaun facebbok tu masih active.


3 kesilapan ni ak buat, and akibatnya akaun ak telah ditiadakan. Tapi fikir2 balik ok gak. Ak bole refresh balik friends ak. Buang orang yang ak x pernah contact langsung and friends ak kat facebook sekarang betul2 friends aku. Bukan friends yang setakat tekan butang approve.




Anyway, practical ak dah start and stakat ni, ak sgt berpuas hati hidup sebagai engineer. Tempat keje bole jadi tempat experiment and main2. Tempat bole kluarkan smua idea2 dalam kepala and tempat bole belaja benda yang best. Keje ak:


Sangat dinamik. Ada men ngan api, men ngan air, men ngan angin and men dengan semua benda yang boleh dibuat main. (Eh jangan fikir lain k? :D). Keje ak buat quality check tuk penyejuk ekzos dan research dengan R&D kat sini nak optimize product deorg. Dah banyak report ak buat, banyak jenis orang ak kenal and banyak thema yang dibincangkan masa keje. Borak ngan orang dewasa smua. Sangat lain pengalaman dari duk dalam lecture hall.




Masam manis keje smua pernah rasa. Happy dan marah smua dah pernah. Gado mulut ngan technician, melayan perangai hipokrit sesetengah orang dll. Tapi piker2 balik, benda2 ni yang buat kite jadi lagi mantap tuk menghadapi masa depan.


Btw, sem ni ak rasa tiap2 minggu mesti de aktiviti. Either dengan budak2 Ulm, ngan membe2, ngan dak2 ALG atau budak2 Offenburg. Setakat ni x pernah ak duk diam dalam bilik sehari n because of that, ak sgt happy. Kalau xde bende nak buat, pi nek beskal satu hari pastu malam dating ngan Nad... hahahaha.


By the way, kepada yang baru tau ak ada facebook baru, ni email facebook ak: faridhadri8888@googlemail.com


add klau korg nk.. so, tu je la... see u all next time. Chow!!!

Thursday, 17 February 2011

Perspectives


We humans are shaped differently. We look different, smell different, taste different and most importantly think different. We have different experiences, we all underwent our own sadness, traumas and happiness and each of us are brought up by our parents' different style of parenting.

Our responses towards certain stimulations like stress, joy, sadness and death are different and this what makes the world unique and at the same time complicated.

A glass half full

Some of us see the glass half full, some see it half empty, some of don't even see the glass at all, some of us don't even care how much water is in the glass, some of us only see the monetary value of the glass and some the philosophical nature of the existence of the half filled glass. Some see the glass as a worldly illusion, some are totally obsessed with the glass.

Perspective and tolerance

Because of the diversity granted by our Creator towards His creations, we ought to perceive others in the manner which I have said before. Not everyone thinks the same, not everyone likes the same things. And what some people have interest in could be scorned at by a few who regards their interests as preposterous or rubbish. These conflicts of interest are the source of all the quarrels, conflicts and wars which we see in our world today. Some of us are given good personality traits at birth, and some of us are born as psychopaths. Some are born normal, some are born abnormal. When normal people condemn abnormal people, that is discrimination. Better people should not condemn people who have less than what they have, but work together to shape them, to guide them and work with them so that all of us could have a win win situation. And better people should not think of themselves as superior beings because non of us are ever perfect.

Culture of open mindedness

Open mindedness doesn't mean simply accepting all the norms in a society but accepting facts that happen around us and at the same time work towards changing the discrepancies in the society. Sexual abuse, child abuse, violence, extremism- all these must never be condemned. Instead of wasting our brain power and time condemning these acts, it's better to sit together, and talk to find out how to overcome these issues. Action is better than talking. Leaders should also be open towards recommendations and advices by their followers, be it if their followers come from an academic background or not. Superiority should not exist in the minds of our leaders.

Ethics in actions

As I said earlier, when an action is made, ethics must come into play. Example, when a group comes out with a solution to tackle child abuse, which is to punish them by means of the death penalty, that is to be considered as an unethical action. Or a group which comes out a plan to alter the genes of babies so as they do not become murderers, that is also to be called unethical. But the definition of ethical and unethical varies day by day, generation after generation. So ethics to me is considered not strong because it doesn't have a strong foundation and could be easily brought down by any human.

Solving the problem of ethics

A book and a manuscript with a set of rules and guidelines that is always logical throughout the times is the Quran and the Hadith. The Quran (Words spoken by God through Gabriel to the prophet) and the Hadith (Words from the prophet). I recommend readers to this site:


Free books one can easily download for free in any language. I like this author for his facts are undisputed and is based on the facts of history, and science.

Saturday, 5 February 2011

Fantasia ngan fantasi tu sama ke?


Rasanya 91,3% keje ak dah selesai sem ni. Fuh... fikir2 balik, sejak Oktober 2010, banyak bende dah buat... xnak ar senaraikan... tapi banyak.... fuh... penat..

Tinggal nak selesaikan 3 paper lagi n pindah umah...

By the way, baru found out yang practical aku tempoh dari awal Mac hingga akhir September.. 7 bulan keje non stop... Cuti practically xde... Tapi ok gak... Xde sebab nak membelanja tuk bercuti & duit extra sebulan masuk... So, it's cool... X sabar nk masuk dalam bidang industry kat Germany. Keje ngan orang sini kat campus dah mencabar... Apatah lagi keje ngan orang2 tua dalam syarikat. Harap2 pengalaman ni dapat menjadikan ak orang yang cekap masa keje ti..

Awal Oktober dah start sem ke 6, sem paling stress dalam hidup budak Bachelor kat Offenburg. So, practically, 2011 ialah tahun bekerja, n maybe ak bakal x bole lepak lama2 ngan rakan2 seperjuangan kat Deutschland seperti dulu kala (2009 & 2010).

2012 kene keje lagi... buat Bachelor Thesis. Lepas tu grad... yipee... Lepas tu sambung Master. Boo hoo.. Lepas tu akhir 2013 kene buat Master Thesis.. Mac 2014, maybe klau JPA x panggil balik, keje sini sat. Kumpul pengalaman n contacts... Lepas tu baru balik Malaysia..

AAAARRGGHH!!! Umur dah 27 masa tu... Nak kahwin!! Nak jugak rasa bila balik keje, sampai umah, tgk bini, bini buat kopi, n then borak lama2 sampai tido... Pastu take turn jaga anak malam2... Bangun tido, breakfast bini buat dengan senyuman dan kasih sayang... n then pegi keje dengan semangat yang kuat... haha... (fantasi)

Lepas tu bila anak dah besar, amek hantar anak pegi sekolah, ajar anak jadi insan yang cekap, mantap n cool cam bapak dia :)
Bila anak dah besa, rambut bini aku ngan aku dah start uban, masa tu ada company sendiri dah, n jadilah CEO company tu selagi tulang ni masih larat nak nagakt pen. Bila dah x larat dah, masa tu anak pun dah ada pengalaman banyak da, ganti tmpt bapak dia. So bini aku ngan aku, pindah kawasan gunung atau pantai, menetap sana untuk menghabiskan hari2 tua kami dengan penuh kasih sayang dan keinsafan... (fantasi)