The coolest dream I ever had

Ak rasa mimpi ni sgt cool so jusst nak kongsi ngan korang.

Semua budak ALG kena panggil balik Malaysia sebab kene buat lg skl kem BTN sejak Malaysia tukar kerajaan. Tp, kitorang semua berpecah ke lain2 kem serata Malaysia. Ak dapat kem somewhere dekat kampung ak kat area Dungun. Pastu ak mintak tukar bilik gi tingkat 3 dari tingkat 2sebab bilik ak berhantu lepas jumpa darah banyak kat celah2 tingkap. 

So borak lah ngan Hausmaster sruh tukar bilik. (ad ke Hausmaster kat Malaysia?). Kat tingkat 3 ni, mmg xde org duduk. Creepy. Lepas tu kena makan. Jumpalah kawan2 lama ak masa Form 1 kat EC zaman budak2 dulu. Nak potong line suruh deorng orderkan makan, so ckplah ngan kawan ak sorang nak tambah satu lagi kat apa yang deorang order. Tiba2 Azan pastu tetiba nampak Farid aka bj kat belakang, suruh ak tunjukkan mana masjid. Lgpun malam tu ad ceramah. So pergilah kami ke masjid , di mana dalam perjalanan x bertembung dgn sesapa pun. Bila sampai masjid, masjid tu usang. Kat pintu tu tertulis ‘ceramah di lagi satu masjid’. Adoi. Bj pun tgk ak, senyum pastu cakap, ‘jom cari lagi Hadri’.

Tetiba terjaga sbb azan kat computer. So smyg, pastu tido blk. Bl tido, terus mimpi lagi. Tgh naik helicopter dgn polis. Deorg nk beg yang ak tgh bawak yang ak sepatutnya x kasi deorg, so ak bajet nak terjun dr helicopter. Tgk2 bawah ad ICE putih lalu. Pastu, ap lagi, terjun ar. Perfect landing.. Fuyoo.. (ICE ialah tren laju di Germany)

Tp ICE memang gerak laju. Badan ak kena tarik sikit demi sikit ke belakang sebab rintangan angin. Memang xbole gerak ke depan sbb ak takut akan hilang balance. Sampailah satu tahap nk jatuh ke celah antara 2 gerabak ICE.  Tiba2 kat tepi jalan sebelah landasan kertapi, ad lori tgh lalu. Dengan semangat dan harapan untuk elak dari kecederaan, ak lompat dgn sekuat hati dan perfect landing kat belakang lori. Fuh, selamat.

X sampai 1 minit, tetiba ada jambatan rendah. Tinggi jambatan tu memang ngam2 untuk lori yang ak naik. O..oo.. nk buat camne? Pastu ad pemandu Turki kat belakang lori ni, suruh ak lompat masuk kereta dia. Bila ak lompat, and ngam2 masuk dalam kereta dia, dia terus telefon polis. Ak lompat kluar dari kereta dia dan terus lari dalam kegelapan. Pastu terjaga dr tido..

Fuh, memang pelik tapi cool. Mimpi ni pelik sket sbb setiap detail mimpi ni ak ingat banding ngan mimpi2 len. Hihihi

Sub-blogging

 

Today is the opening of my new music blog. No boring stuff, no crap. Just music.. enjoy

music is life..

Hachiko: A dog’s story

 

Spent the Friday watching a movie via streaming on the internet. ‘Hachiko, A dog’s Story’. Another film that has a very deep and meaningful message to how we perceive the meaning of love. This film is not about romance between man and woman, but more entirely upon faithfulness between dog and master. To tell you the truth, it made me tear up a number of times and had a deep message to how we should love.

The thing about this film, its not mainly meaningless Hollywood erotic romance, but based on pure, loving and sentimental romance, the romance that binds two humans together rather than tear them apart in the long run. Considered one of the best 88 minutes movie I have ever watched in my life.

I heard of this in a book by a prominent counsellor somewhere::

Tuhan ciptakan 100 bahgian kasih sayang. 99 disimpan disisinya dan hanya 1 bahagian diturunkan ke dunia. Dengan kasih sayang yang satu bahagian itulah makhluk saling berkasih sayang sehingga kuda mengangkat kakinya kerana takut anaknya terpijak.

(God created 100 parts of love. 99 of them were kept by his side and one part was blessed upon the earth. With this one part, all beings in this world love each other until horses raise their hooves so that their children won’t be trampled.)

I was told before that the power of pure love blessed by our creator is so powerful to the soul that it alone heals all sufferings and brings one closer to God.

Back to the topic, this film is about a tiny aspect of pure love between man and animal. There are many aspects: love between parent and child, husband and wives, friends, teachers, and the environment, and for me, if the meaning of pure love is cherished by the whole of the human race, how nice would this world be.

Malaysia tetap tanahair ku (selepas setahun perjuangan di sini)

Lepas setahun duduk sini, serius ak plan nk duduk, keje, berkeluarga ngan bersara kat Malaysia. Walaupun dari segi nilai  mata wang, keje kat negara lain lagi mewah, tapi keseronokan tu xde. Kaya dengan jiwa yang x bahagia, baik duduk miskin tapi bahagia.

Walaupun dapat sesuaikan diri dgn budaya orang tempatan, tp jauh dalam lubuk hati, perasaan sebagai orang kulit coklat dalam negara orang kulit putih masih ada. Kadang2 rasa dilayan lain macam ada, rasa sedang diperhatikan sebab berambut hitam ada, dan macam2 perasaan janggal masih ada.

Nak communicate memang masalah sejak hari pertama bertapak di sini. Sejak semenjak ni, klau borak tu, alhadulillah dia faham, tp perasaan setelah sedar yang banyak kesilapan grammar dalam perbualan tadi buat diri rasa fras. Lepas tu, nak cakap apa idea2 atau perasaan2 dari hati ke mulut memang perlukan tenaga banyak. Most of the time sebab alasan dah habis tenaga (aka malas), lebih baik diam je.

Musuh orang asing yang menetap kat negara orang ialah Sterotype. Macam org2 Malaysia sterotype orang Bangla, orang2 Asia pun distereotype kat sini. Masa pekse hari selasa br2 ni, ak telah distereotype oleh examiner bila dia cakap straight to my face, ak akan menipu walaupun muka nampak innocent. Damn gile orang Badisch ni. Lepas tu fikir2 balik, member ak dalam kelas pernah crite kat ak pasal research makcik dia yang kene curi oleh Praktikant syarikat makcik dia yang asal dari negara Cina. What’s the point nk crite kat ak bende2 tu?  Lawatan ke kilang besi pun, orang yang bawak kita tour tu xnak bawak kitorang masuk bahagian gelek besi (walzen) dalam kilang besi, sebab takut orang ‘China’ (akulah tu) akan curi rahsia syarikat deorg. Come on ar.. Jgnla sterotype..

So, sesiapa yan baca post ni, walaupun kita dah senang lenang kat Malaysia, jgnla diskriminasi golongan pendatang atau yang susah2 kat Malaysia. Deorg pun manusia jugak. 

Lontar kepala babi kat Masjid

Baru-baru ni, Malaysia dikejutkan dengan macam2 kes yang menghina agama satu sama lain terutamanya Islam, Kristian, ngan Hindu. First isu roboh kuil nk dipolitikkan, pengunaan kalimah Allah, pastu bakar membakar tempat ibadat, skang baling kepala babi dalam masjid. Ayoo..

Tapi, semua benda ni berlaku baru2 ni je. Macam2 benda politik. Dulu2, zaman orang2 politik x kecohkan isu perkauman, ak rasa Malaysia tu memang cukup aman. Semua bangsa, agama semua tolerate satu sama lain. Walaupun ad sikit pergeseran, pergeseran ni xla kecoh sampai ke media mainstream atau Malysiakini sampai boleh cetus ketegangan. Sejak semenjak pembangkang dapat banyak kerusi, BN hilang banyak kerusi, semua nak berebut kuasa dan jadi jaguh bangsa sampai letak kepentingan agama bangsa negara ke tepi untuk agenda peribadi.

Serius, ak rindu Malaysia zaman dulu2. Dewan rakyat aman, badan perundangan x dipersoal, dan BPR boleh buat kerja betul2. Sekarang, situasi dia dah jadi complicated..

Tapi, kala nak pendapat ak, ak rasa Malaysia sekarang tengah kena serang. Bukan dari segi ketenteraan tapi dari segi halus. Bukan nak tunding jari, tapi saje nak keluarkan andaian. X heran kalau badan perisikan dari negara yang x senang dgn Malaysia nk jatuhkan kita. Operasi sabotaj dari negara lain  pehaps??

Walau camnepun, ak doakan agar Malaysia aman sentiasa dan supaya kita jgn api-pikan apa2 konflik yg berlaku di sekeliling kita. Amin

Respect, Respekt, Hormat, respeto

Mentality is how we think and the norm how we act facing normal situations in our everyday lives. It took me one year to notice this and after i notice this, and confirm this based on countless of this occurrences happening in front of my eyes, I hereby confirm it and wish to put as a stance to how I think.

I have so far had talks with countless of people from different races and countries. Germans, Lebanese, Africans, French, Russians, and others and therefore, I noticed a golden personality that people from less developed countries have that people from highly developed countries don’t.

People from highly developed countries in my case don’t have simplicity, respect, inner peace and most importantly, they have an extremely high sense of individualism. Perhaps these traits gave rise to their monopoly in the fields of science and maths during the 20th century. In my opinion, if the fields of science is developed based on these traits, it’s like eating bread without filling. eating plain spaghetti without sauce or drinking coffee without sugar. A sort of emptiness which exists when a person with countless riches don’t have faith and have no family.

The golden personality that most of us Asians have are faith, peace of mind, serenity and a sense of belonging to the society around. That’s why, when the west and the east collide, it gave rise to conflicts and dilemmas. The westerners are to individualistic to share their technology and the easterners fail to catch up due to their high sense of belonging to their society. Now some of us Asians really want to be westerners at the same time leaving behind the foundations of faith which made the society of their forefathers stand (like a few I know).

In the Islamic teachings, and also a few philosophies in the east like Taoism or Buddhism, it is sought for that we have respect for the elders for they are wiser in their own way. If someone loses this respect, therefore, we gain nothing. In other words, ‘hilang berkat’ or ‘lose the blessings’. (correct me please if I’m wrong). This teaching is very foreign to the western culture and is mostly perceived as a sign of weakness, low self esteem or incompetence.

This does not mean that we must listen blindly to what old people say, for they too are imperfect humans. But when they make a mistake, it’s ideal to speak to them nicely, humbly and kindly so as we don’t cause tensions that might break out into war or conflicts. Not lash at them like mindless hooligans.

So, I pray that the human race is blessed with an open mind and with the resolve to fix this world instead of bringing harm to it. Amin.  

Perubahan

Summer  love 09

 

 

Autumn in my heart 09

 

Winter Sonata 09

 

Duduk negara 4 musim. Kalau panas, panas. Kalau sejuk, sejuk. Tapi macam2 variasi. Kat atas ialah pandangan daripada bilik. Benda indah yg ak pandang di ambang kegembiraan, kesedihan, keresahan dan keseronokan. Pemandangan ni akan dirindu sbb bulan 3 ni kene pindah umah.

Sejak semenjak ni, ak perasan kalau crite org putih ni, atau crite  Jepun, kebanyakan plot dia berasaskan musim. Macam kalau crite Jepun atau korea, pokok sakura lambang musim bunga, matahari terik lambang summer, daun kering lambang autumn ngan salji yang turun lambang winter. And klau ikut jiwa orang sentimantalis, setiap musim merupakan lambang perubahan dan episod baru kehidupan. Contoh kalau serita Autumn in my heart, hero crite tu sentiasa ingat musim autumn sebab musim tulah dia terpisah dengan adik dia masa kecik. Last2, setiap kali Autumn, dia jadi sentimental.

Ada satu buku ak pernah baca, dia kata musim ni macam kitaran kehidupan. Musim bunga lambang kelahiran, musim summer lambang kehidupan, musim autumn lambang kematian, dan musim winter lambang kesedihan atas kematian. Lepas tu, musim bunga lepas tu, kehidupan hidup semula.. Xde benda kat dunia ni yang kekal. Bila satu benda hilang, secara automatiknya benda tu akan digantikan dengan benda yang jauh lebih elok dan serasi/sesuai. Tulah kitaran perhubungan atau kitaran kehidupan. So, kalau ap2 benda x elok berlaku, nak sedih nak marah tu normal, tapi terimalah keadaan, n kalau ad kuasa  nak berubah, ubahlah.