Al-Fatihah

Eventhough it was only a few weeks that I had met her, I could see nothing else on her face except happiness and serenity. I felt that she was like a big sister to us in Offenburg. This was the first time in my life I had to face a death of a person I regard as a sister.. Zira Abdul Rahman will always be in our hearts and anything that she has ever done in this world will always be cherished and remembered for days to come.

Al Fatihah. May she put under Allah's loving grace. Amin

Formula baru atasi kehampaan

Stress tu normal, stress tu biasa, siapa yang xde stress tu namanya bukan manusia. Tapi apa yang bezakan antara manusia hebat dgn x hebat ialah cara dia tangani stress.

Stress bagi aku sama macam letupan. Letupan ni most of the time buruk, tapi kalau letupan ni terkawal, maka dengan itu, macam2 faedah manusia boleh dapat. Contohnya, letupan kat belakang rocket yang boleh buat manusia sampai ke angkasa. Ataupun letupan dalam kereta yang boleh buat manusia merentasi beratus kilometer dengan selesa. Tanpa letupan, ad sesetengah proses kimia yang takkan berlaku. So, kalau orang tu x rasa stress, dia kurang produktiv dan xkan pergi jauh dalam kehidupan.

Bulan lepas, ak ada baca buku yang bertajuk, ‚The power of the subconscious mind‘‘ dengan satu lagi buku ‘’The five things n life we cannot change.’’

Dalam buku pertama, The Power of your Subconscious Mind, penulis tu cerita tentang rahsia nak tukarkan stress jadi prouduktiviti. Ringkasannya:

Dalam otak kita, ada 97% bahagian otak kita yang kita belum guna. Einstein, Newton, Keppler, dan byk saintis yang terkemuka kat dunia ni boleh fikir jauh sebab kemampuan deorang nak access segelintir daripada 97% otak deorang. Sigmund Freud pernah buat satu kertas kerja pasal fenomena ni. Dalam kertas kerja tu, dia cakap otak sedar kita bertindak sebagai penapis. Logik menguasai otak sedar.. So kalau misal kata lecturer kita mengajar suatu benda yang x masuk akal, otak sedar kita akan disagree dan ilmu yang datang x akan disimpan dalam bahagian 97%. Bak kata pepatah Melayu, masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan. Satu lagi contoh jelas: Masa exam. Kadang kala, sebelum periksa, kalau orang tanya korng soalan, korg x dpt jawab secara spontan, sebab kespontanan datang dari otak sedar. Tapi dalam suasana tertekan dalam periksa, semua benda tetiba keluar x tentu pasal. Benda2 ni sebenarnya keluar dari bahagian 97% and sebab tu lah sesetengah manusia boleh kerja baik under stress.

Kalau seseorang tu dapat kawal 97% otak dia, orang tu tak akan rasa tertekan dalam suasana yang x selesa, dapat rasa bersyukur tatkala kemiskinan melanda, dan dapat mersa gembira walaupun keseorangan. 97% otak ni boleh kawal fikiran kita yang didominasi 3% bahagian sedar dalam otak. Kesangsian, kesedihan, ke’mengada’an, kita semua hasil interpretasi otak sedar kita. Contoh kalau korg jeles dengan makwe atau pakwe, padahal makwe atau pakwe korang x curang pun.. punca kesangsian tu datang dari otak sedar, sebab semua fantasi dan hipotesis datang daripada logik. Satu lagi contoh, cinta antara manusia. Kadang2 dua pasangan ni, asyik benci bila pandang mata, asyik bertengkar bila selisih, tapi dalam lubuk hati deorang, deorang tetap sayang antara satu sama lain. Dalam bahasa psikologinya, otak sedar deorang cakap benci, tapi otak 97% deorg tetap sayang.

Dalam buku kedua , The five things in life we cannot change’, penulis tu cerita tentang kaitan antara psikologi dengan amalan spiritual. Ringkasannya:

Pembangunan manusia terbahagi kepada 3, ‘psychological development’, ‘ spiritual development’ dngn ‘mystical development’.

Psychological dev. ialah pembangunan kendiri. Untuk menjadi seorang yang effektiv untuk menempuh kehidupan. Spiritual dev. ialah kemampuan untuk redha dan sentiasa menerima keadaan sekeliling termasuklah persekitaran, haiwan dan manusia lain. Mystical dev. ialah membuang dunia dan meyumbang kepada persekitaran bukan utuk habuan tapi untuk Tuhan, dalam erti kata lain mysticism ialah ibadah yang kita buat untuk mendapat keredhaan Tuhan.

So apa kaitan dengan stress??

Takrifan stress dalam buku ni ialah tidak bahagia. Oleh itu, tidak stress maksudnya kebahagiaan kendiri. Bila seseorang tu dapat imbangkan diri dalam pembangunan psychological, spiritual, dan mystical, maka kebahagiaan dengan diri sendiri dapat tercapai dan kehampaan tidak akan timbul walau apa2 pun yang terjadi..

PS: Sekadar nak kongsi walaupun kadang2 kepala ak x betul bila mood x baik. Kalau ad yang nak pinjam buku2 ni, datang ar. Dah habis baca dah pun…

Viel Erfolg!!

Visit to Stahlwerk (Kilang besi)

My first excursion with my coursemates from the Fachhochschule. Oo, never did I knew that each and everyone of them had a wild side I never could have figured out. It seems that on that very day, almost everyone became friendly to me. People who never even acknowledeged me before suddenly gave smiles and cracked jokes, and some of them even told me about their life story which was quite interesting to hear. But that was not the main part of the trip.

Entering the Stahlwerk, it was the first time I saw melted steel in front of my very eyes. Just imagine, 21 square kilometers of nothing except steel processing factories in the heart of the city. Super cool. The oven in which they melt the steel ores. The melted steel ores (looks like larva) is then sent to another building tb formed into solid steel. After it is formed into blocks of solid steel, these blocks are then sent to the 'Walzwerk' or in other words a pressing factory, where the thickness of one block is reduced to one twentieth of its original thickness, by being flattened and cooled under high water pressure. Wow.. never knew that it takes so much processes just to produce a steel part for our everyday products.

But of course, the smoke and pollution produced by this Stahlwerk was of epic proportions. There was once, when the Sulphur Dioxide vapour was blown directly towards us by the wind and all of us coughed and eventually had red eyes herafter. We only have one earth, and if this goes on, how is our world going to sustain for the next generations after us? Well, we just have to keep our fingers crossed don't we?

But of course, to tell you the truth, Europeans tend to stereotype Asians saying that people like us tend to be involved in industrial espionage. Well, duh.. Not all asians are mainland chinese u know.. to be honest, I regard all of the people who say this remark to be Hitler's reincarnations. Even my E--Technik proffesor has a foul stench of nazism. Damn ultra nationalists!

But for me, its not that I support industrial espionage, but for me, technology is meant to be shared. For the sake of profits, firms keep their research a secret and will not share their intellectual assets with their comrades of the human race. How doof. Get the facts straight: Europeans themselves took knowledge from the Islamic empire, and used this knowledge to invade other countries. They took thhe rescouces from other countries and now, they are still greedy in sharing their technological advancements to third world countries.

Just imagine, if science is put in front of profits, I think the crisis in developing countries could be solved. Science will advance very rapidly like it did in the Islamic empire during European's dark ages. Now technology is only shared by strong nations. That's why, in my case, scientists and philosophers heal the world, but businessmen turn this world into living hell for poor people. Down with capitalism!!

But basically I had a good time. Above is a picture of one of my group mates from Sierre Lione (just knew that it was pronounced as Sieghe Lio) and one of the girls from my group in a rusted steel factory built during the 19th century.

My slogan for this post: Down with supriority, down with capitalism and say no to racism. By the way, selamat hari raya Aidiladha..

Have pity

Just imagine living in the safety of your own home and suddenly a foreigner comes and sets rules until it really pisses you of. You argue with this foreigner but they have backing by backdoor thugs and when you rebel, this foreigner takes out his superior M-16 and points the barrel at your face. You see, this foreigner thinks that he is superior i.e the chosen people of God and decides to punish lowlifes like you by bashing your elbow with a rock and cutting of your toungue so that you won't fight back next time.

This foreigner then confines you to a tight corner of your own house and invites his friends to stay at your house haing a bed 100 times more comfortable than yours. The foreigner and his friends than lash at you, condemn you and cage you at the tight corner where you are now standing at. Nevertheless, you still have to pay for the rent of your own house, while the foreigner gets paid by the backdoor thugs sitting 3 blocks away.

You don't know what to do anymore. You call your friends but they cut the telephone line. And even if you could get through, and your friends gave some support to you, these foreigners will harass your trustworthy friends and spread bad rumours about your friend through gossip. Seemingly weird is that the gossips spread by these foreigners are the ones majority of your neighbourhood listens to.

Well, what about your wife, children, mother, father, siblings and relatives who also live in your home? Well, these foreigners kill them brutally as a reminder to you not to step against theor authority. These foreigners open your cupboard, take out your clothes and burn them and in its place, place new furniture and beds so that more of their own kind can come and stay for free.

However, your plight is known by almost everybody in your neighbourhood. Only a few enlightened ones decide to take action by going to the Ministry. But the ministry is controlled by these foreigners. Their voices bring no meaning. But most of the people in your neighbourhood, they just don't give a damn. They sit in the comfort of their own homes and say that you are not their problem. They sit to comfortably without having the slightest will in their heart to end the wrong-doings committed by these wretched foreigners.

You then become desperate. You could only sit and wait until a miracle comes. Who could be your saviour?



Just watched a documentary called 'Occupation 101'.
This documentary was about the plight of the Palestinian people. I teared a few times watching the facts for peace was being raped by the Israelis in the land of the Prophets. I think most of you already know the history of the Israeli nation, so I don't have to repeat what most of you already know. The story above is just something I came up with after much pondering.

Up! My review

Just watched Up!.. A very spectacular movie. At first I only thought that it was a zany movie about floating houses, but I was mistaken. The message it carried really impacts the way one perceives reality based on their nostalgic side.

Seriously, this movie is very touching. Like normal movies which only shows a 'happily ever after' ending, this movie shows another side of love and life. It shows how a boy meets a girl, falls in love, and goes through the hurdles in life as a married man until the point the boy's (now an old man) wife, past away.

The nostalgia this man holds becomes so intense that he doesn't want to let go of his past. Finally it takes a wild adventure to open his heart to live on and live till the max no longer being overshadowed by grief and regret.

I'd seriously recommend this movie. One of the good movies I won't get bored watching eventhough repeated for many times. Rating 4.78/5.00

(Thx yus bg muvie ni)

3 poin penting

Minggu ni, minggu yang bole didescribe dgn macam2 singkatan:

1. sibuk
2. sakit
3. jgn buat benda senang jadi susah

Sibuk:
Malas ak nak brag pasal sibuk2 tu, tapi mmg sibuk la sket. Smlm jadual ak full dari pukul 8pg sampai malam tp last2 sebab x tahan sakit ak ponteng la Internationalabend tu. Lgpun malam sebelum tu,3 jam duduk mengacau gula nak bagi hangus dah cukup menyumbang.. hehehe. Soree dak2 OG sbb x dtg..

Sakit:
Bengkak bahagian atas paha. Kat noda limpfa (kalau korg masih ingat Bio form 5). Dah x symetrie dah badan. Bila mandi, mesti down sbb tgk paha sebelah besar, sebelah kecik. Pergi doctor, kene bukak seluar dpn doctor. Bapak segan. Lepas tu bole plak dia nk tekan bengkak tu. Huu.. berjerit ak dalam klinik. Naseb bek xde org time tu..Ingat ke tahap kena orperate nak buang benda tu, last2 dia cakap sbb bacteria. Bg Penicillin pas tu sruh dtg blk minggu dpn. Tp minggu ni,jalan dah kengkang tahap kangkang. Time rehat tgh2 period (Pause), smua nak pandang. Segan gak ar. Pedih pun xkesah la, sbb tetiba rasa macam superstar la pulak. :0

Jgn buat benda senang jadi susah:
Mcm biasa kena buat report. Nk betulkan report lama, pastu buat report baru. Report sebelum ni dah kira perfect dah pun. Xde pangkah apa, tapi Deutscher ni, masih x puas hati. Ak nak buat singkatan sendiri ar: Even mountains of gold cannot satisfy a man's greed. Seriously.. So, bincang la benda2 pasal physik. Concrete punya evidence ak dah support, xnak caya jugak. Tp last2 kena terima jugak, sbb deorg pun xde idea. All talk but no work- those are the type I work with. Just to transfer idea2 deorg dalam kertas pun susah. Last2 ad perkataan favourite ak: Shreib es einfach mal! (Tulis jelah!). Tapi kepuasan tu bila dah siap.. huu.. lega.. I love this feeling...

So, lps nie, concentrate pekse.. Kpd pembaca2, viel Erfolg!!

You are not alone

Laa, rajin plak ak tulis blog ni. Saje je. Bosan pulak 2-3 hari ni. Sekarang pukul 730, ak baru je balik dari Rathaus. Bila balik, sampai umah, lagu mendiang MJ tetiba bernyanyi kat kepala ak.

'You are not alone

I'm still here with you..'

Walaupun duduk dalam bilik sorang2, n kadang2 bosan, ak x tahu la.. Bukan nak cakap apa, tapi bila penyakit Einsamkeit (aka loneliness) datang, mesti ada benda berlaku yang buat aku lupa tentang loneliness. Ada sekali tu, aku memang bosan n sepi tahap nak balik Malaysia, tapi tetiba, budak2 kelas ak kol, ajak join study group. So, ak terpaksa la study malam tu, n one way or another, ak lupa tentang kesepian.

Hari ni pun, pukul 12 tgh hari, ak rasa semangat dah kosong. Buku pun x sentuh, asyik menghadap computer buat benda sama yang x berguna. (Tgk email, check duit, friendster). Tetiba dua budak Auslander (foreigner) dari group ak kol, kata nak dtg umah sbb nak blaja ap ntah. So, blajalah kami. Huu, sempoi keje dgn deorg. Bila dah habis blaja, open story ar. Sorang tu dari Morocco, sorang dari Senegal. Duk kongsi pengalaman duduk kat Germany. Bila cerita2, ak prasan hidup deorg lebih kurang je mcm hidup dak Malaysia kat German. Masalah bahasa, masalah budaya, masalah agama dll. So lepas deorg balik, ok gak ar rasa.

By the way, kat Offenburg ni, rasa dah bosan. Semua tempat menarik dah pegi. Benda yang seronok masa 1st sem, jd kurang seronok masa 2nd sem. Well,what to expect, kata dah dewasa, so control je la. Once liked but now hated, so what to do.. You cannot please everybody can you? Whatever happens behind closed doors, let them happen for a warrior always looks upward even at the brink of defeat. A warrior will never cower when 1000 spears are pointed towards his throat but in turn find ways to point those spears back to his opponent.

Bushido